2013年3月19日火曜日

#3 What I used to love and What I'm loving now

In all honesty, I can't bring back to memories about what I used to enjoy, well enough.

I remember a bit, I played outdoors with my friends, we handed round one diary book among friends and kept our personal logs (we called it “koukan-nikki”), and so on...
But I still have strong memories of the fact I used to being bullied because I was very small and slow with trends.

Though I was a child, I understood, if I'm not engaged with other people, or I made my parents worry about and people ridiculed me as a freak.
So, for me, it was almost a duty that I related to people around me.

When I could get relaxed is the time I was alone.
I was often drawing or painting with swimming my favorite music sounds.
I think it might be my best amusement at that time.

Also now, I just love doing it.
Now I listen to more more music than when I was a child.
Though I can't have enough time to draw, the time is absolutely imperative. it makes me feel at home.

But it's not “ONLY”. just “ONE OF CHOICES I have”.

I love spending some time alone, and also love playing with my affable friends. It's not a “duty” now.
My job is often so hard, but I like it so much too. It makes me meet many people and talk with.
I love seeing smiles.

After I've written like this, I can't help but realize that I myself have became a cheerful person. haha...

However, same old, I'm not good at playing with many people, especially on the bar stool.
Though there're many, eventually, I talk with some best friends, perhaps.
But I think it's OK.
Because it's NOT a “duty”.


I think, NOW, I'm very free and enjoying my own life so much.